Thoughts

[sgatazmy]

My hit counts on stories is quickly dropping (3x less this month than last). I can’t figure out if it’s that my stories don’t interest people so people see my name and just don’t click or if something else is going on. I feel okay about it, mostly. I already know any migrated fics will get less clicks, but I’m not sure on the story for new fics. I have some readers who seem to kudos each time and that really keeps me going. The comments also help to maintain my squee.  I have so many stories in my head I want to write.  I just wish I could silence the voice in my head that keeps asking if I am doing something wrong.

I think I do realize that I write too much gen for most of the appetite out there. I just don’t think I am even capable of writing anything explicit, nor am I sure I want to. I will read just about anything, but writing is just a different thing all together.

Anyway, I’m almost finished with the George the Turtle Series revisions.  There were so many edits needed but I think it’s a better coherent whole thanks to my betas. I did decide to leave the current ones posted as gen and then I’ll post a new version that is pre-relationship McShep that then leads into John and Rodney’s Wedding Adventure. 

Comments

[leesa_perrie]

I've never followed the hit counts etc, just delighted when I get the odd comment here and there. But then, I always wrote for myself and didn't really mind if people liked what I wrote or not! I'd tell that voice that it doesn't matter, so long as you enjoy it and some others do too.

[sgatazmy]

I think my bigger worry is if my audience fades to 0. I am loving fandom so much right, I’m afraid of losing it?

[tippergreen]

It could be time of year. People often have less time to spend these days - between holidays, back to school, holiday parties, etc., I think folks are just busy.

[sgatazmy]

I think that is part of it. I am so glad you and a few others are around sharing fandom with me. I don’t do as well in a vacuum.

[wonkyelk]

You’re a really good writer and it’s been lovely to see your enthusiasm at returning to the fandom. For what it’s worth, I hope you don’t get discouraged and continue to enjoy writing.

[sgatazmy]

It means a lot you think I’m a really good author. I am doing my best to continue. I do write for me but I also have RSD which rears it’s head a lot. (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria). It’s a subset of ADHD that means we see rejection everywhere and also reject ourselves. I have to remind myself that isn’t reality!

I am so grateful for all of you who have been regular readers as well as to you for your wonderful stories! I feel I learn about writing when I read your stuff.

[sholio]

Like Tipper said, I expect people are just busy and a little overwhelmed. And I've also noticed - especially in not very active fandoms - that there can be a huge variation in the reception that my different stories get, often due to completely unpredictable factors. So I hope it'll pick up a little, especially once readers have a chance to go back and read your older stories.

I'm really happy to see you're back in the fandom and enjoying yourself! <3

[sgatazmy]

It has been so fun being back in fandom and hearing from old and new. We even do rewatched on Sundays which keeps the show fresh.

I think I need to concentrate on my regular readers and just not worry about everyone else. If I have my regular readers, I am not in a vacuum, and it’s fun to keep going. I can see other stories still getting lots of hits so I suspect it is the case they see my name or they see it is gen and skip it over, but that’s okay. I love writing so I need to focus on that.