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More reflection
Nov. 20th, 2017 03:09 pmI am almost caught up on Steven Universe. All the feels! 2 episodes to go and then I'll post a reflection.
I feel a lot better today. I think sometimes people just need to vent to understand their feelings. It's normal to feel let down when hard work doesn't pay off but that doesn't mean the hard work wasn't worth while. I knew going into this fic that there were several reasons people wouldn't enjoy it in the same way I did, and I've decided I really am okay with that. I knew the ending wouldn't fly with many. I knew the beginning would turn some people away but insisted on keeping it anyway. Really, this whole thing was foreseen. I guess, I just expected since the pre-readers liked it that those things wouldn't matter so much (none of the pre-readers even brought them up.)
So I don't have to like the same things as others and it's okay to write what I want to write. It's for me, not everyone else. It's just like there are many MLP episodes fandom hates that I really enjoy and appreciate. I see something different there than many do. I think that's always been true for me in most fandoms I've joined. (Also, while I am not getting many hits on the story at all, I did finally get a few responses and some favorites so that feels a little better. It wasn't a total loss).
(My daughter's teacher says she sees the world differently than most and it causes her to struggle trying to understand others. I think I'm the same and it shows in my writing.)
In other news, I found out two of my closest friends are now into MLP as well as a few other friends. I don't think I've ever seen a fandom where I know so many friends into the show? My counselor says I shouldn't be embarrassed to like MLP (because sometimes I am) and pointed out her 30-year-old daughter is also a big fan. So my question is: How does this show relate to so many people across such a large spectrum?
In other other news, I have another fic in my head and I still want to write. So maybe growth mindset is working for me after all.
I feel a lot better today. I think sometimes people just need to vent to understand their feelings. It's normal to feel let down when hard work doesn't pay off but that doesn't mean the hard work wasn't worth while. I knew going into this fic that there were several reasons people wouldn't enjoy it in the same way I did, and I've decided I really am okay with that. I knew the ending wouldn't fly with many. I knew the beginning would turn some people away but insisted on keeping it anyway. Really, this whole thing was foreseen. I guess, I just expected since the pre-readers liked it that those things wouldn't matter so much (none of the pre-readers even brought them up.)
So I don't have to like the same things as others and it's okay to write what I want to write. It's for me, not everyone else. It's just like there are many MLP episodes fandom hates that I really enjoy and appreciate. I see something different there than many do. I think that's always been true for me in most fandoms I've joined. (Also, while I am not getting many hits on the story at all, I did finally get a few responses and some favorites so that feels a little better. It wasn't a total loss).
(My daughter's teacher says she sees the world differently than most and it causes her to struggle trying to understand others. I think I'm the same and it shows in my writing.)
In other news, I found out two of my closest friends are now into MLP as well as a few other friends. I don't think I've ever seen a fandom where I know so many friends into the show? My counselor says I shouldn't be embarrassed to like MLP (because sometimes I am) and pointed out her 30-year-old daughter is also a big fan. So my question is: How does this show relate to so many people across such a large spectrum?
In other other news, I have another fic in my head and I still want to write. So maybe growth mindset is working for me after all.
