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Oh, it's been a bit since I checked in, I think. I hope you are all doing well.

I've been working a lot, but really enjoying it right now. I hope that enthusiasm keeps up. I haven't written much, but I did start a new GEN story based on this artwork that my daughter drew me.

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I think I never posted here, but I did recently create a fic that was made into a podfic by itstartedwithalex as a gift for cassiope25. I so enjoy doing collabs with her and getting to surprise cassiope25 was a huge plus. Since we made it at the same time, we put the podfic and fic in the same post:

Possibly Hypothetical by Tazmy, read by Itstartedwithalex. Link to written fic and podfic. McShep, rated gen, Love confessions, feelings admission, a whole sea of emotions with humor. Rodney returns from an IOA inquiry with an important question for John.

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This May, I'm hosting a genMayathon for SGA. We're going to have open prompts for people to answer and it will be some laid back fun to get some gen fic out there. I'm also running a closed exchange for my discord friends at the same time that will pair with the genMayathon. I'm so excited to see some brilliant authors signing up who I don't think have ever written gen before! Much as I like my romance, I really have been missing some friendship and other gen style stories. I'm sooooooo excited!!!

I'll post the genMayathon pages for the general prompts challenge soon as we get them set up.

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I can't stop thinking about Babylon 5.

sholio posted about The Long Night of London Mollari, and that episode was always so special to me. Especially now with how everything is going. When G'Kar tells London that it doesn't matter if people stopped. It doesn't matter if it was a stranger or his worst enemy. He had a responsibility to say something.

Oooooof I feel we all have to keep repeating that right now.

Fandom Trumps Hate 2025 bidding is open. This is a great opportunity to donate to charity. I’m offering sga fic and podfic this year. I’m offering gen or shippy or anything in between, rating up to T. Bidding ends March 1.

Podfic bid

Fanfic bid

The discord Secret Santa reveals happened and I received this wonderful fic by

mific . I love so much about this McDex fic from all the tenderness with Ronon and Rodney's reactions to everything. It's creative and different and fun. Thanks mific!

It's Not Easy Being Green by

mific
McDex, First Kiss, Friends to Lovers
"Now, laddie, I don't think it's a disease. You're too bloody healthy for that," Carson said, patting Rodney's shoulder.

Meanwhile, I wrote for the exchange for mific. That was a surprise to see we got paired with each other as it's often someone different! I think it worked out great:

Candy Mountain by Tazmy
McShep, Feelings Realization, First Kiss, Teyla Matchmaker, playing with tropes: one bed, truth telling
When Rodney and John keep avoiding each other, Teyla makes a plan to help them sort out their feelings.

I have a sore throat today and feel bleh. So imagine my surprise when I woke up from my midday sick napping to a wonderful gift fic! It was written for the leftovers challenge where people take whatever prompts were given from the secret Santa and write extra, unexpected stories. So I had no idea this one was coming my way.

It's so CUTE and FLUFFY and gen and it's about Torren and the Team and I love it. Was that enough "and"s?

I'm guessing it's fairly obvious from the style who wrote it. But I love it so much I'm going to post it now before reveals:

Never Work with Children and Ancient Technology by Anonymous
short, fluff, gen, humor

The thing about babies, was that is was very inadvisable to leave them unattended -- even for just a fraction of a microsecond -- in the presence of Ancient technology.

I haven't been here in a while. How are you all doing?

I've managed to write 5 drafts for chapter 19 of my advent fic. FIVE drafts. I think I FINALLY found the main story. Hopefully I'll get that chapter posted soon. Then just three more to go!

I'm falling into the Severance fandom right now. This show is sooooooo good. I watched season 1 a few years ago and I loved it. It took three years for season two to air. As far as season openings, WOW, they really didn't hold back. Sure, suicidal ideation is a great way to start a season, right???? *blink blink*. And yet, it was sooooo good. The family feels are amazing. The main character going around the whole episode like, GIVE ME MY TEAM BACK. *sigh* This is my main weakness when falling for a new show.

Meanwhile, Sholio has been posting about M*A*S*H a lot and I have always loved going back to that show and just basking in it. The last episode always gives me such feels that I stop being able to think for a while. Such a good show....Maybe I need to rewatch?

Real life has been crazy. I think I'll avoid talking about all that for now and just stay in fandoms for a while.

The SGA Secret Santa 2024 reveals have occurred. I got assigned

cassiope25 who is my fandom bestie and I plan everything with. The only way to throw her off the scent, knowing I'd probably already given myself away, was subterfuge. So I wrote a decoy fic with acrowb based on fake prompts from thejademare.

The actual fic I wrote for

cassiope25 :

Axie (Feelings admission, McShep, humor, fun, pets)

Rodney isn't happy he got assigned Cadman for the secret Santa exchange. John isn't happy that Rodney won't let him sleep.

The decoy fic written by me and acrowb for thejademare:

Unrelenting Blizzard (gen, Ronon and Rodney friendship, hurt/comfort)

Ronon and Rodney are trapped in a blizzard. Ronon is sick. There is a worrying rattle to his cough.

Did you all see this?????? OMG, Rachel reading about Stargate Atlantis Christmas fanfic!!!!!

Oh I forgot to post this here! Reveals happened for the sga discord's third anniversary. I was honored to be asked by itstartedwithalex and

cassiope25 to write a story that would get podfic'd and cover art made for! Wow. Like, they just trusted me to write a story and that it would be good and worthy of making a podfic? That's....that's something...

Anyway, I did it. And....I think it turned out awesome. It's funny with a little bit of angst for flavor. I LOVE the podfic that itstartedwithalex made and the cover art is perfect!

This one is with a bit of John/Rodney pre-slash.

If You Give a Scientist a Pillow by Tazmy, ready by itstartedwithalex, cover art by

cassiope25 All are on the same AO3 post.

Summary: If the SGC felt, in their ignorance, that Rodney didn't need more coffee, then maybe Rodney felt that he didn't need to work after all.

Also known as the story where Rodney goes on strike and builds pillow forts.

I got two more fic gifts recently that weren't due to any exchanges. Just written for me just because. I LOVE that.

Can We Agree that Duels are Dumb and Immature? by Anonymous. This story is gen, no relationship.

When an Earl whose lands the Team is staying on gets a stick up his butt over who's the smarter star guy, he demands a duel with Rodney. The only problem with that is, Rodney doesn't exactly know how to fight a duel. Lucky for him, Ronon does.

This fic is so wonderful and the author somehow wrote it all at once! I mentioned that Ronon would make a wonderful musketeer and I want a duel with swords where Ronon defends Rodney's honor. So this author delivered!

If Boys Don't Cry (Where These Tears Supposed to Go) by McRaider, story is gen, no relationship, or can easily be seen as pre-ship McShep if you prefer.

When the stress catches up with Rodney, John is there to pick up the pieces.

This fic is a companion piece to WonkyElk's Hold Me While I Break which I recently podfic'd. McRaider gives us this wonderful story with John's point of view of Rodney's breakdown.

Have you seen the meme with fanfiction that says something like: Sometimes you just want a hundred PB&Js? This is in reference to always reading the same trope or seeking out one specific thing over and over in fanfic.

See, sometimes I want humor. Sometimes I want gen. Only gen (or gen masquerading as pre slash). Sometimes I want feelings realization and only feelings realization.

Apparently, lately, I only want poor emotionally tortured Rodney trying to cope with all the fallout from his actions. I want lots and lots and lots of it. If it references gating Elizabeth, all the better. Replicator code? Yes, please. It needs some h/c with it, and friends that stand by him no matter what and help him see the good in him. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH YOU ALL. I can't even tell you.

So I wrote this a lot. I also got my wonderful friend Mas_Pebbles_Sharp to write a story for me about it for Fandom Trumps Hate. It has everything I love, plus sea monster and Rodney imprisoned for months and whump! So go check it out:

Sentenced by Mas_Pebbles_Sharp.
Description: Pain. Mind-bending, nerve-screaming, something is terribly, terribly wrong pain. Was he dying? Rodney thought this time maybe there was no going back because surely you could not experience this much agony unless you were going to die? And surely the sense of profound loss and hopelessness he couldn’t put memories to made death the best of all options? He didn’t just give in to the darkness, he ran after it, only too willing to escape his agony.

Note: McShep, McKay/Sheppard/Ronon, definitely read the tags.
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And then there are all the stories I've written or podfic'd lately in this vein. The latest of which is pretty much exactly the same PB&J sandwich I always eat, just dressed a little different to give it some flavor. This time the flavor comes in the form of self-destructive behaviors that have been slowly escalating. The story starts after it's gone too far when Rodney agrees to a punishment ritual off-world after a village blames him for recent deaths.

I had to write this one when I woke up and I clearly heard Carson telling Rodney, "I'm sorry, son, Colonel Sheppard has advised we put you on a 48-hour hold pending a mental health evaluation."

And after that was in my head, how could I not write it????? Like, what would happen that John would take such a drastic step?

Blame Thy Foolish Self by Tazmy.

This one is established McShep with nothing more than some handholding and a sentence or two saying they are together.

I wrote a new story! I’m so excited because so many ideas came to life with this.

Basic summary: When Rodney falls seriously ill off world it is up to the local healers to save his life.

What story is this? Take Note

What fandom: Stargate Atlantis. How I am still here 20 years later, I am not sure.

Written for: Tipper (also somehow still here *g*) and Cassiope25

Want to know what other awesomeness this story includes?

Rodney finds the music within him is literally powerful and healing
Rodney insults locals medicine. Locals actually know what they are doing and treat him anyway.
Rodney so sick he’s on the verge of death
Ronon talking about Melena and her work as a nurse
Ronon asking Rodney to honor Melena’s memory with him
Very mild McShep/Pre-Slash. Nothing beyond some hand holding (most of it awkward) and feelings admission (as much as John can do that)

So, yeah, I’m really happy with this story.

Hi all! It’s been a bit since I stopped by here. I’m dreading the upcoming fall with return to work and I still have a cough. I am enjoying that August was mild weather wise and the fires did not affect us as they did in previous years. It was amazing!

I haven't managed much but I wrote one short story called Guilty and made one podfic of

nottasha ’s recent fic Ghosts of Atlantis.

Guilty is g rated with McShep love confessions and first kiss. I finally wrote about the Intergalactic Court that Tipper (

tippergreen ) suggested to me a while back. The court is coming after Rodney and he’s ready to face life in prison, but the team has a plan. Only Rodney would rather face trial. Can John convince him to flee?

As for the podfic, that was a long one!!!!!! 2 hours. I had so much fun recording it. NotTasha stories are like reading episodes.NT only writes gen/teen no relationship so this story is that.

How are you all?

Now that I have time to write, my brain seems frozen. I've posted a few little things here and there, but I definitely feel myself slowing down. Which sucks because once work starts again, I won't be able to write. And I have so many ideas.

I have managed a few things, however:

(gen) Unlikely Sympathies is just insane. Kolya & Rodney frenemy fic...seriously! They bond over infuriating tech. wonkyelk even made art when we first discussed this idea and then let me incorporate it into the story itself.

(McShep, nc-17) I wrote a sequel to Festering Wounds, Hurting Souls, Loving Hearts. But here's the thing....It's um....explicit. And if you know me, you know that's odd and unexpected. Ever since I wrote the first story, which I call Lemons for short, I'd felt it needed something more intimate. I just never felt I could write that or really wanted to. But my muse disagreed. But, this being me, I don't write explicit just for explicit sake. I always have to say something or to add humor or be different somehow. So this one is more awkward and humorous than hot and I have no apologies for that. I like how it turned out. It's one of those both of them are completely new at this and have no clue what they are doing. Not Entirely Clueless: The McShep Guide to Your First Time.

(some gen, some McShep, Stop Talking! is poly) I am writing a sequel series of one-shots to Stop Talking! called All the Ways Rodney's Team Cares for Him. The goal here is to only write for me and not worry about taking it too seriously. So these are less beta'd (if at all) and just about getting my thoughts out. In Stop Talking! Rodney admitted to the fact he not only had suicidal thoughts and ideation, he had gotten close a few times to seeing it through. So now in this new series we see Rodney temporarily stepping down from Head of Science and trying to heal with the help of his team. There are two stories so far
- (gen) Chapter 1: Lunch - Every day Ronon takes Rodney to lunch.
- (McShep lite, easily seen as gen but smarmy) Chapter 2: Cuddles: Rodney doesn't show up to dinner so John checks in on him.

(Problematic McShep) I finished Bottled Up Lightning. Definitely a story that's not for everyone, but I'm proud of it. This explores what happens when someone (John) tries to fix his panic attack by drinking. Answer: It just perpetuates the problem and he spends 5/6 of the fic in a panic attack with destructive and hurtful behavior. Glasses Marine (seen in the background of many eps) helps Rodney and John work things out in the end. But not before Rodney has his own panic response. It's angst/drama/whump and definitely different. As I said, not for everyone. Some might claim (and have) that the only happy ending would be for them not to be together but I disagree. People can temporarily be problematic and come back from that. Most of this was me processing my own experiences with emotional manipulation. From that one, there was no going back. So with fanfic, I wanted to imagine if there was a situation where it could be resolved. Most people do seem to like it, at least, which actually surprised me.

I finished writing my new story, Bottled Up Lightning, and have begun posting. It's a McShep fic where Rodney seems eternally stuck in the infirmary and John's have a mental breakdown due to bottling up his feelings for far too long. It's a different fic that has John not sure how to handle his panic attack since he's never had one before, and hence making some very bad decisions. And once he's made a few bad decisions, he just keeps making more and more because it's too hard to stop.

It's definitely McShep. No way to read this one as gen so sorry about that to my gen-only readers. There's one kiss at the end and that's as far as it goes, but the fic does center around John's love for Rodney and how he just can't deal with watching Rodney facing death's door time and time again.

I'm really proud of this one. I was scared people would not appreciate my version of John in this fic because he's not exactly making good choices and he is being a jerk as a result. However, three chapters in and I have 4x as many subscribers to the fic than any other of my AO3 fics and my user subscriptions are going up at a faster rate than I've seen before. So, for now at least, people seem into the fic. I also think the comment interaction has been stronger than I've seen on my AO3 fics before, reminding me more of the levels I'd get on ffn. So that's really nice! I'm so excited that others are enjoying this fic. I think it is hands down the best writing I have ever done.

Anyway, here's the details. I'm posting a chapter every 2-3 days. I think it's best to read this as posted, to let the end of the chapters sink in for a bit before moving to the next. I know not everyone likes doing that, but it would be my suggestion.

Title: Bottled Up Lightning

Fandom: SGA
Relationship: McShep
Characters: Rodney, John, Teyla, Ronon, Carson (clone), Glasses Marine ( he's in every season of SGA in the background and now he's in this fic with a fun role in the later chapters)

Description: John’s first, true, honest-to-god panic attack is when DADT is repealed. Which doesn’t make sense because John doesn’t do panic attacks. He’s not Rodney, after all, and he knows how to compartmentalize and keep everything from bubbling to the surface. .... A story about extended infirmary stays and clashing emotions.

Current Mood: pleased

Except for a few stragglers I probably won’t migrate, I moved my last old story to AO3. It’s still gen and only mildly revised. This one takes place right after the Hive.

My daughter provided new artwork for the end of the story.

Doctor’s Orders

I made a podfic of NotTasha’s Stupid Stuff (gen) which is one of my favorite stories of hers and focuses on Ronon and Rodney.

Tipper wrote a new short fic that is crazy good and…..McShep? This is her first venture from gen and it’s…wow. So worth reading.
I Sometimes Wonder by Tipper (McShep, feelings realization, rated teen, just one brief sort of kiss) tippergreen

WonkyElk wrote ME a short gen John & Rodney friendship fic where Rodney has a breakdown and it is soooooo good. I just love it! WonkyElk is easily one of the best writers in fandom, IMHO. Hold Me While I Break by wonkyelk

nottasha

wrote a new gen story. This one is so cool, especially the details in the last chapter that bring it to life. Matter of Time by NotTasha

MasSharp wrote a John stuck in a time loop with ADHD. This one is McShep and rated M. I beta read for Mas for the first time and this fic so resonates with me. Well worth the read. Loopy

And in case you missed it, I wrote this humor story with art by anonymous. McShep, Teen, humor. That’s Not What I Heard

I wrote this for

cassiope25 and I am so insanely excited about the artwork anonymous made for it. So excited, I made some of it my icon. I went all out manic writing this, including so many of Cass's and my favorite tropes. It's short, dialogue only, which is not usually my thing these days, but why not? It's all gossip outsider POV so I think it's all good.

There's not much to talk about the process on this one. I just listed out Cass's favorite things and then tried to encompass them in the most ludicrous ways possible.

No real warnings here, but there are tentacle monster jokes...

More artwork inside.

Rodney covered in bleeding bandages. He has horns and wings. He doesn't look happy.

Rodney covered in bleeding bandages. He has horns and wings. He doesn't look happy.

Title: That's Not What I Heard

Rating: Teen

Genre: Humor, Whump

Summary: Underlings gossip, giving ridiculous explanations for what happened to Dr. McKay and why he's covered in bandages. Includes art.

Relationships: McShep (not admitting feelings, idiots in love)

Characters: Rodney, John, Team, Original Characters, some Sentient Atlantis

Current Mood: ecstatic

I’m really annoyed at how my words get cut off in my Stop Talking! podfic. I was using noise gate on garage band then and didnt realize how bad it was until I tried listening to it in the car. Since this fic means so much to me and I can’t seem to stop going back to it, I want to
go back and record it with audacity and noise reduction. It feels overwhelming to rerecord though. My lemons fic needs similar revision.

What is it about Stop Talking! that I keep going back to it over and over? I honestly feel that it’s the best piece of writing I have ever done and a lot of that was due to my awesome betas. I also feel like it encompasses everything I ever wanted to say about Rodney and how he could not be okay after so much death and strife. I never thought I would write a “suicidal Rodney” fic but I did and I love it and I treasure it like a precious lovey. Is that weird?

Music for Rodney was posted as its own story as a gift for WonkyElk, but in my mind it’s actually a sequel to Stop Talking! I think I want to write more in this universe, focused on the healing now that Rodney decided to get help and admit his struggles.

Anyway, I’m so glad to be back to writing and so excited for stories I’m really proud of even months after writing.

Details: Stop Talking! is a sga fic where Rodney is forced to share his darkest thoughts and accept help. It includes Rodney/John/Jennifer.

I’m especially proud of this beginning (no pairing in this excerpt)

( Opening to Stop Talking! )

First, writing update:

I’m still enjoying writing SGA. I just have too many ideas. I think several will eventually come together into one big story.

I finally joined in on the

sga_saturday community and posted a short response to the prompt: unfinished. It’s gen (Teyla & Rodney friendship). Fresh Air and Coffee.

I think this is a good way to write without much pressure since it’s just 500 to 2000 word responses to a prompt in a welcoming, kind community. I definitely want to do more of these

Second: Con!!!!!!!

It seems a huge number of sga fandom folks as well as most of the cast of SGA will be at Baskingstoke Comic Con. So many people I interact with online will be there. My husband says I should go so I’m just waiting on word from my boss. I can’t believe I’m thinking of going but it should be so fun. What a great way to celebrate the 20th anniversary! David, Joe, Rachel, Rainbow, RDA, and Amanda will be there along with others. Its a small con with only 2800 attendees and small meet and greets for the actors. And so many of my favorite writers and fandom people will be there!

I have so many fond memories of Pi Day.

It's a holiday I always look forward to. This year we are going to have a party with the neighbors. Any excuse to eat pie, right?

For those not in the US: Here we celebrate Pi on March 14 because we write our dates different than the rest of the world. We write the month first then the day. So 3.14. Thus the geeks all eat Pi and act crazy. It's also Einstein's birthday.

When I was a postbaccalaureate and then masters student studying math, I remember the Pi Day celebrations in the math lounge. We sang silly songs, ate pie, and generally laughed ourselves silly. I truly treasure those days.

In 2006 when I was in the math lounge and just starting into writing Stargate fanfic, I wrote a Pi Day fic. I remember everyone in the lounge throwing out ideas to include. I had to write quickly before Pi Day ended, so I posted without a beta. Thankfully, the response was really positive despite the remaining typos.

The story, looking back, was seriously saccharine and in need of revisions. The underlying idea, however, still called to me. So my quest these last few days was to bring this story back, but make it live up to what I knew it could be.

(1) Less Saccharine

(2) Still sweet but maybe a bit more salt. I noticed a slight Trinity reference so I decided to embellish that. Which is hilarious, right? Here is am writing a silly, fun fic and I decide to go with fully making it a Trinity tag? Sure, why not.

(3) Fix up passive writing

(4) Really embellish more of the crazy fun. Add some fun mathematical descriptions to the pie fight to really bring the whole fic together.

I'm so proud of the result!

Title: PI Day (2024 revision)

Silly, fun, season 2, Post-Trinity Fic. Yes...fun and silly as a Trinity tag!

Description: Atlantis celebrates Pi Day

Relationships: None, but can easily be read as John/Rodney so I let the reader choose.

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