Early Morning
Jan. 17th, 2015 07:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sgatazmyWhy am I awake? I went to bed at 1 and woke up around 5. *headdesk*
I heard back from my beta after I posted Above All Else. Apparently she had pneumonia so that explains why I didn't hear from her. She did still give me her thoughts on my story and thankfully they were positive.
I'm actually feeling very proud of the story. I feel it encompasses a lot of what I've tried to do with previous fics but never quite managed. In fact, I think this is the most proud/confident I've ever felt about a fic. I want to shout it on top of the rooftops that I finally did it! I finally wrote what I've been slowly working up to writing for so many years. It's not that the fic is brilliant; it's just that I feel accomplished and proud.
I've had a few requests for a sequel so I guess it's good I have one in the works. :)
I also realized when I wrote this story that it wouldn't be for everyone and some people would simply not care for angry!Sheppard. For the first time since I began reading fanfic, I'm okay with that. I'm finally at a place where I understand not everyone has to like what I write. People see different traits in the characters and people aren't required to view them the same way. I still think people shouldn't leave reviews that say so (that's just mean) but I'm thinking I'll be okay if any of those negative reviews seep through.
My beta and other friends also helped me feel better on this front because they point out angry!Sheppard is accompanied by friend! Sheppard and in the end Sheppard doesn't let his anger keep him from helping McKay. In the end, friendship and loyalty are the heart of the story.
I think that is part of why I couldn't sleep. I keep thinking of Teyla and Ronon's reaction to everything and how all of Atlantis will band together to entertain McKay.
I heard back from my beta after I posted Above All Else. Apparently she had pneumonia so that explains why I didn't hear from her. She did still give me her thoughts on my story and thankfully they were positive.
I'm actually feeling very proud of the story. I feel it encompasses a lot of what I've tried to do with previous fics but never quite managed. In fact, I think this is the most proud/confident I've ever felt about a fic. I want to shout it on top of the rooftops that I finally did it! I finally wrote what I've been slowly working up to writing for so many years. It's not that the fic is brilliant; it's just that I feel accomplished and proud.
I've had a few requests for a sequel so I guess it's good I have one in the works. :)
I also realized when I wrote this story that it wouldn't be for everyone and some people would simply not care for angry!Sheppard. For the first time since I began reading fanfic, I'm okay with that. I'm finally at a place where I understand not everyone has to like what I write. People see different traits in the characters and people aren't required to view them the same way. I still think people shouldn't leave reviews that say so (that's just mean) but I'm thinking I'll be okay if any of those negative reviews seep through.
My beta and other friends also helped me feel better on this front because they point out angry!Sheppard is accompanied by friend! Sheppard and in the end Sheppard doesn't let his anger keep him from helping McKay. In the end, friendship and loyalty are the heart of the story.
I think that is part of why I couldn't sleep. I keep thinking of Teyla and Ronon's reaction to everything and how all of Atlantis will band together to entertain McKay.
